I was disappointed when I heard about your indiscretions from different friends in different towns.

I’ve had a rough week. I found out my friend Brandon killed himself earlier this week and it’s been a difficult journey understanding and coping with his death. I’m very saddened that I will not be able to attend his funeral in Florida and I can’t imagine what his family is going through. Brandon was a good man, and he wil be missed by many people. 

This week I realized that I need to be more compassionate towards other people, especially kids at shows. I’m given a rare gift of meeting new people everyday and if I can spread a little positivity towards each person I meet the world will be a better place. You have no idea how much your words matter, not only the things you say, but the things you don’t say too. I realized this week I need to tell my friends how much the mean to me and not hold anything back thats on my mind. 

This weekend I went and visited one of my best friends in the world, Paco. He’s one of those friends I can be 100% honest and blunt with and we even started a bible study in Cape Coral a few years back that met in my house. Now we live just a couple of hours apart in North Carolina and I visit him every opportunity I get. He lives with an amazing family and they are truly my spiritual parents, they are the most loving and supportive people I’ve met in my entire life and when I found out about Brandon I knew I needed to go visit them and Paco and have some good talks. We talked and prayed and played music all weekend and it was amazing, when I got there I felt upset and lost but now I feel calm and peaceful and I couldn’t ask for anything else. 

My life only gets better from here, in a few weeks I’ll be TMing a band that isn’t Divided by Friday and I’m super excited about that! The day after I get back from that tour I’ll be leaving for Warped with DBF and I’m even more excited about that! Good things are happening in my life and I’m glad I have a personal blog where I can squeeze some juice out of my head every once in awhile.